To be completely candid with you, doing what we do is hard. It's a daily battle to overcome the valley of discouragement and persevere to do the greater work. We watch people in ministry relentlessly choose sin over sanctification. We try our hardest to feed and love and give though our resources are quite meager. We give counseling and shelter for free over and over. People are rude to us. People take advantage of us. We figure out what boundaries we need to put in place as we go. We keep going. Don't think there are not days when we want to sell this place and move into a two room bungalow and fade into obscurity. This happens to me several times a week. I get overwhelmed by small things that constantly come at us. My windshield cracking sent me into tears a few weeks ago. We came home to a window that had fallen out and a leak. After weeks of constant activity and "gimme gimme gimme" on the road, I had a little break down.
So, I sat down and whispered, "come, Abba, hold me." He never leaves us alone, you know. God is faithful even when we are on a marathon away from Him. He has reminded me of His love and faithfulness countless times in the last few weeks. "Don't give up," He says. I find countless beautiful words that He has shared with me and I await the flood of refreshing to come. Little things come as a blessing to me. As we went through our stack of mail, I had a box from Amazon. Someone had sent me 5 Corrie ten Boom books. My husband got a card from a family member with money and was able to buy an air compressor and nail gun that we needed for our work here at Gomer. I went to the dentist and was reminded of how God provided for all my dental work. Mostly, I am thankful for a simple life where I get to enjoy my family and remind weary people of the beauty of the Gospel every day. I get to rest and leave the Holy Spirit to do the work. Sufferings are no comparison to glory(Romans 8:18).
No matter where you are today, no matter the darkness that surrounds you, don't give up. Grace abounds and refreshment comes.
Please pray for us as we try to figure out how to fix a few things around here before we leave again and how to fundraise for the coming year. Thank you for your love and support.
"Therefore we ourselves boast of you in the churches of God for your steadfastness and faith in all your persecutions and in the afflictions which you are enduring."
2 Thessalonians 1:4
"When one of us suffers for you, we all suffer, Lord, for we are all one in the body of Christ. We share pain as we share glory." -Corrie ten Boom