Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Would You Do It?

This Blog is Updated Each Tuesday. My husband once asked me if chain smoking is when people get together and smoke. He was dead serious. He is obviously not a smoker. I laughed as I pictured a bunch of smokers locking arms smoking in a chain. Chain smoking is actually when people finish a cigarette and almost immediately begin another one. I am like that in some respects. Only I am a chain reader. The minute a book thuds closed I am at the shelf pulling out another.

Over the last few weeks I have torn throught some great books. I read Gods and Kings, a historical fiction novel (1 in a 5 part series) about the kings of Judah. It was fascinating. I read The Ever Loving Truth by Voddie Baucham. Excellent. I think every Chrisitian should read it. Right now I am in the middle of Family Driven Faith, also by Voddie. It is phenomenal. If you are looking for something to do in a small group, pick this up. It will rock your world!
In the mix of these was a book that my friend Anne lent to me. The name of the book is The Same Kind of Different As Me. This story is a powerful true sequence of events that impacted an unloved people group for the glory of God. It ministered to me in a beautiful way and peace just flooded my spirit. One of the characters in the story loses their life due to liver cancer. I had read this book in a few short hours on a Tuesday. The next day my mom tells me that my 36 year old brother has been diagnosed with liver cancer.
God, what are you doing?
As I was reading Gods and Kings a verse stood out to me. That verse is

Isaiah 43:2 "When you pass through the waters, I will be with you, and through the rivers, they will not overwhelm you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned or scorched, nor will the flame kindle upon you."

I read the book in Colorado and returned home to a frame with the same verse made for me by Anne. Actually it was made for her pastor, but God told her to give it to me. Keeping with the same theme, I received a Christian article entitled When You Pass Through the Waters. It was about when a loved one gets cancer. God was preparing me. Why?

I am not altogether sure. I do know that God works in ways that I cannot fathom. When Denbigh's grandpa, Granday, died a few years ago it set his Nana into a deep search of spiritual things. Sometimes I think life has to send us a curve ball so that we will search for God on our own in a real and powerful way outside of the influence of anyone else. I asked Denbigh if he thought that God asked him if it was okay. Did he whisper into his spirit,"I want to draw your wife so close to me that it will amaze those around her, but you have to lose your life. Do you love her that much? Will you do it?" Not that God needs our permission, mind you. I just wonder. I feel that kind of question looming over me. " I can draw your brother physically home into my salvation and healing embrace. Would you be willing to sacrifice a lifelong earthly relationship with him to be assured that you will see him in heaven?"
Special Bulletin
For several years I have been praying for my stepmom, Babs. She has been dealing with a lot of grief and pain in her life. The enemy literally has her holed up in my parents house. One Friday after Christmas they were supposed to meet us for lunch and canceled. I prayed that God would get her out of her house so that she could hear Him and think clearly. That day their house caught fire not once but twice in two different ways in different ends of their house. They had to move out. I thought I most certainly would never tell her that I prayed for them to have to leave. I took the opportunity to pray and enlist others to pray with me that God would speak to her and she would clearly hear Him. One day in her hotel room she sat there feeling like God had set their house on fire!!!! She started asking why and if He wanted her to let go of stuff. She said, (and I quote) "if you want me to let go of this stuff, You're going to have to hit me in the head with a two by four!" (Oh yeah.) Later that day at their house she was walking around where the workmen had been working and a piece of scafolding fell (yes, literally a two by four) and hit her on the head. She was gushing blood. At the emergency room she received 9 stiches. Her eye swole completely shut and she was bruised all the way to her collar bone. She kept telling people God hit her in the head with a two by four. She told me her mind just seems to have opened up after that. I told her that my prayers made her house catch fire. Please pray that God will protect her mind as she seeks Him...that He will fill her with truth.

Please pray also for my brother's relationship with Christ. I want him to be drawn to deep relationship with God during this time in his life. He has stage 4 cancer of the esophagus and liver.
Good Hair Day!!

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Hosea's Hurt

Uncle Mike and Laomai I have been studying the book of Hosea relentlessly in an effort to write a study. Hosea married a prostitute and spent the first few chapters of his book trying to get her to stay home in safety and she keeps going back to her addiction even though she has people who love her and safety. In the rest of the book it goes on to talk about how we, as God's chosen people, are like Gomer (Hosea's wife).
We choose idolatry every time.
God recently opened my eyes to Hosea's plight. I have stared into the face of countless loved ones begging them not to go on the way they were. My uncle died at 45 after wrestling with the pursuits of this world. My brother, Clint, overdosed 2 years ago (at 38). Now I am looking at my brother, Mike, sitting in a hospital with cancer ravaging his body.
On Friday he had a stroke.
He is 36 years old.
What do we have to do in order to get people to not choose alcohol, cigarettes, drugs, pornography, lust, lies? I am mad. In fact, I'd say I am pissed off! I am tired of watching the enemy steal entire lives and ravaging bodies. I am angry. Right now, I wish I could punch the enemy in the face, grab Gomer by the hair and drag her home.
Gomer, the door is wide open to you. Come home.

When I have a bad day God always sends me random things I think are funny (in my weird sense of humor). I caught one with my phone. This guy who pumped gas next to me looked just like the guy from Brooks and Dunn. That made me laugh. I love a good handle bar mustache.

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Copper Mountain

Getting ready to snow mobile.
12,500 feet up on the Continental Divide.
Allen & Doris Tarbutton

Sunday, January 06, 2008


Denbigh and I are blessed to be heading out of town to Copper Mountain, Colorado this week. I will not be posting my Tuesday Edition of "Terribly Interesting," but I wanted to extend to you a heartfelt plea. Read this book. Buy it for your friend. Buy it for your wife. Buy it for your mom. It will speak to deep places, wounded places in you that you didn't know existed.
Read. Absorb. Be healed.
We are a group of walking wounded pretending we are well. We maim and cut with our judgement and inflict on others the very hurt we received ourselves. No, it doesn't always manifest the same way, but it's there. I have noticed something among the female body of Christ. We have no idea how to act. We hide venom behind politeness.
As I prayed for healing myself I realized some things. Shyness is a result of wounding and very often rooted in pride. It can very well be sin. It is because we focus so much on self and what others think of us. I prayed to be set free from it and to be able to tell people that I deeply love them and care about them. Do you know what I found out? This kind of raw, intimate emotion freaks people out. But this is how Christ tells us to live. About 99.9 percent of the time I get weird looks and a less than response in return. That .1 percent drives me. That's you. The people who claim the call, accept the love, and wallow in the grace. Read the book. Be terribly interesting. Do not be afraid any longer. Live your life as Christ intended. Freely give as you have freely received. Be loved. Be loving. Be lovely. Captivate.
A group of us south of Austin are starting the dvd study that goes along with the study starting on January 15th. Please join us. Contact Angela Wheeler if you would like to join us. She is a .1 percent and beautiful. acw_18@hotmail.com

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

A Blessed New Year To You

As I was thinking of writing this blog a hundred ideas flooded my head. First I thought I'd confess that I don't care if the people at Walmart wish me a "happy holiday" or a 'Merry Christmas." Forcing people to bend to our political agenda (and that's what it is)only covers up the darkness of their heart and their desperate need for our prayers. I just don't remember Christ ever trying to fight "the man" so I won't either.

I thought I'd tell you about how amazing I think my daughter is and how this year has full on altered my life for all time. God is at work. Mostly, I thought that I would tell you how I yearn for you to know and feel the intimate love of God in this year to come. I have no idea who most of you are, but I pray for you and get on my face asking God that He will use you in a powerful way. I pray you a humble heart to receive and to give. May your passions be ignited this year! May God Himself bless you in all fullness and abundance.

I am attaching our 2008 22ONE7 Ministry Newsletter here. They are getting put in the mail this week as well. Love and Blessing to you all.

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