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Tuesday, November 25, 2008

It Belongs To God

This Blog is updated each Tuesday.
(This isn't the greatest picture of me, but I wanted to show off my new necklace Klorissa gave me. It's name is "Patina." I love it! It reminds me of something God allowed me to overcome and accomplish. I wear it and am thankful. I had a book published. Little 'ol me.)
I am in recovery. (Aren't we all?) I went into labor a little over a week ago at only 15 weeks and we lost another baby. This is my fourth miscarriage. I don't think anyone wants to process this kind of thing out in the open, but I feel like it is what God wants me to do. As I was in the emergency room I kept hearing a phrase in my head repeatedly. "We lose our joy when we hold onto things that belong to God." My children belong to God. All of my children belong to God. Another thing I thought of is how people try to console those who miscarry with telling them that their children are in heaven. I know there is no promise of that in scripture. I trust God anyway. 

This Thanksgiving I am thankful to God for pain and restoration. I know that hurt has caused more healing in my life than most anything else. There is something about times where you are raw and emotional that allows walls to be torn down and kindness to spring up. Perhaps we are too tired to fight it. No matter, I am grateful for it. I am not the same person I was two weeks ago. As I slowly go through this hand in hand with Jesus I know that ten more losses would be worth one more gain. I am grateful for the most beautiful little girl. I am thankful for a husband who wouldn't leave my side in the hospital even for a minute until I was taken to surgery. I am grateful for a mom (and Babe) who rushed down and helped soothe my broken heart. I am thankful for the hundreds of flowers I received from the women at our church bringing roses to me. I am blessed to have a wild and crazy husband who is willing to give up all the normal entitlements to buy, remodel, and open up his home to people who are hurting. I am thankful for friends and the love of God displayed by His Spirit. What are you thankful for?

... everything comes from You, even what we give you comes from Your own hand.
1 Chronicles 29:14

* I posted a mini book review on Sunday (see below).



I have no idea how I did this to Denbigh
My Rockin' Husband





our niece, Millie
Laomai celebrating a Baylor win with a good brushing of the teeth!

5 comments:

Tiffany Atwood said...

Oh Stephanie... Bless you, my sweet One, bless you... Thank you for your candor and vulnerability - to be raw so you can be used by God to minister and encourage others. I love you more than words can say...

Tiff

Terribly Interesting said...

Thank you, Tiffany. You are too kind. I love you too!

susan said...

Stephanie:

I am so sorry for your loss. In your vulnerability, God has used your words to truly bless my soul. And, YES, we are all in recovery. Thank you for the reminder of being thankful to Him for pain and restoration.

Bless you,
Susan

jenjon_baker said...

Stephanie,
Thank you for such a honest and open look into your sweet and healing heart. How beautiful it is...vulnerability for the LORD. And how right you are...we are all in recovery from something. How beautiful would it be if we all treated each other as so...with love and gentleness...no condemnation. I look forward to more insights into your wonderful soul and the fruits of the good work that God is doing in you right now. I love you!

at His feet said...

I love you tons and am praying for you... Thanks for sharing your heart so others can heal too.