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I have often told my husband that I belong in the city or in the country, but not in between. I know that sounds odd. It's just something in my wiring. We have moved to the country, but I feel more connected to God and others here than I ever did in the suburbs. I know it may sound unusual, but it was God's magnificent provision for my heart. I feel like I have spiritually come out of hibernation. I can hear God so clearly. I can speak His word more easily. I can love my friends better than I did before. I wasn't sure what ignited this. I know it was obedience and quiet. My mind keeps thinking of John the Baptist and his time in the wilderness. When he came out of the quiet desert place, he had something to say. He had "Meat" to bring to the table. He was not a man who brought frilly desserts that make people feel good. He brought something to chew on. He brought something to digest. In my service, that's what I long to do. I want to bring meat to the table. I want to be so content and quiet with the Lord that I have something of value to offer you. I want to bring something that will point you back to God and make you long to love Him in a new way. I am praying that as I sit alone in the peace of this restorative home I hear His words in the quiet.
Sometimes as I withdraw I wonder why people step on people to get positions. I wonder if people are stepping on me on their way somewhere else, somewhere "better." People are rude. People are hurtful. People are selfish. People want what you have. People want your calling! They will try to steal it. Your husband will never be enough. Your kids will never obey enough. Your friends will never validate you enough. Be Christ anyway. Show kindness anyway. Turn the other cheek anyway.
Turn over tables if you have to.
I read a verse on a friend's blog the other day and thought it was amazingly appropriate to the culture of women in the church today. (www.kynasaul.blogspot.com)
If you've gotten anything at all out of following Christ, if his love has made any difference in your life, if being in a community of the Spirit means anything to you, if you have a heart, if you care— then do me a favor: Agree with each other, love each other, be deep-spirited friends. Don't push your way to the front; don't sweet-talk your way to the top. Put yourself aside, and help others get ahead. Don't be obsessed with getting your own advantage.
Forget yourselves long enough to lend a helping hand.
Philippians 2:1-4 (The Message)
I am thankful for the many deep-spirited friends I have. I love you, Kyna, Emily, Carla, Tiffany, Melissa, Anne, Tanya, Christine, Rebecca, Shelley, Suzi, and many more).
Thank you all for your love of Jesus directed at me!